i could really really use a bit of help with groceries this month! like, really really. i have $50 to last til the 23rd and i need to buy gas and feed my cat. and myself, ideally, as i’ve been kinda just doing one meal a day ish. SO, I would love to paint some headshots of your FFXIV or GW2 characters!
they are $50 each. if you want to see other kinds of art i can do, check out my portfolio here.
if you want to help but can’t do a full commish, here’s my ko-fi!
Nebraska hasn’t passed a single bill this year because one lawmaker keeps filibustering in protest of an anti-trans bill: ‘I will burn this session to the ground’
Damn. I thought she was just gonna up and make a fuss and her swearing to protect trans kids was a bunch of empty words (again).
But no. She’s one-woman filibustering the entire Nebraska legislature into a complete standstill until they agree to protect the rights of trans kids.
She was 100% serious when she said she’d make it as painful for everyone as it is for trans kids. Gahddamn.
This is why small elections matter. She’s not a country wide senator or president or shit. She’s just a local official representing District 6 in Nebraska.
This is why the “smaller” elections between the presidential elections matter.
My fucking car got stolen. Walked out of my building to leave for work, and my car is nowhere to be fucking seen. 3 phone calls and 1 breakdown later, I find out it was recovered in the next city over and is currently being held in impound. Now, I have to pay $170 to get it Out of impound, plus pay to replace the back window the thief/thieves smashed in so they could joy ride my car.
If anyone could spare some cash for the fee, the repairs, or the gas/Uber money to get to the impound, I’d greatly appreciate it. My cashapp and Venmo are ser3nitycpt21, and you csn DM me for my PayPal link.
i went to a tiny counterserve diner once and accidentally poured sugar instead of salt all over my hashbrowns and was eating them sadly anyways. the waitress took them away and started making me another one and I tried to protest, but she just snorted and said “we’re not catholic here”. now every time i’m doing something painful out of obligation i think about how that is not repenting, this body is not a catholic establishment, there is no nobility in suffering.
If the weekend comes and you can’t stand the thought of not having your time filled with survival requirements and/or the idea of socializing un-anesthetized scares/freaks/weirds the fuck out of you? Go see a therapist and tell them that. Tell them that you can’t stand the thought of doing nothing. Or doing something for no reason other than enjoying it. Tell them you can’t relax without chemical help, be it socially or just in general.
It is not normal. Everyone doesn’t live that way. Even all the people you go drinking with on the weekend? Not all of them need it. But you? You can’t have time off without it.
That’s not normal.
Look. I’m not hating on social drinking. Before the pandemic, my favorite thing to do with my friends was go to a local brewery and try all the weirdest beer I could find. But when that wasn’t an option, I wasn’t destitute. Boy howdy though there were some people I knew who were.
And more importantly, I’ve known people who got help. Some of them got therapy and some got on medication, and it was a world of difference. Some of them even can still drink and often do! But they aren’t driven to it by any need other than wondering what a beer that’s called “Girl From IPA-nena” tastes like.
I mean, you can, for a while but WOOOOOO that burn out! It’s so much harder to get back up from that. Seems like a solution, but it’s a Pyrrhic one. Win one battle with a deadline, burn everything else to the ground for years - or even a lifetime.
I’m still recovering from this. I don’t know if I’ll ever really recover from it.